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Raynis, and Adelaide Productions.
Author's Note: Hi. Thanks for actually reading this. Or making a bold attempt to. This fic takes
place right after the "Hide 'N' Seek" episode where Rico made that bold move and told Dizzy he loved
her....oooh. It's from Dizzy's POV, and pretty short. Thanks for reading and please tell me what you
think of it. First of a series, too!
"If Only He Knew"
by Trelliah
My name is Isabel Flores. Everyone calls me Dizzy, though. It's a nickname my brother, Eddie, gave
me.
There isn't a lot to say about me, I guess. I'm okay height-wise, I have short red hair, and green eyes. If
you ever see me, I'm most likely on some planet somewhere with a pulse rifle shooting a bunch of giant
bugs in an army green powersuit.
Oh, yeah. One more thing. I'm a jinx.
I know, you must be thinkin', "What does superstition have to do with being an ape?" Not much, but I
must have walked under a ladder or broken a mirror somewhere along the line. I mean, after what went
down in Buenos Aires, I literally have no family left.
On the other hand, my friends and squadmates are always there. Especially Rico.
I used to like him, but he never would look at me in that way. It was always Carmen.
After they finally had their big moment at the medical base at Zegema Beach, I gave up on it. Somewhat.
Turned to Zander. Not long afterwards, he turned into a bug.
At last, those three words I had been dying to hear from Rico were said to me.
"I love you, Diz."
Okay, four words.
Why did he have to say that? Why couldn't he have stuck to drooling over Carmen? It's not something I'd
like to see every day, but I could live with it. If only he knew how badly it hurt me to make him walk
away...
"Dizzy....um...don't you think we should talk?" Rico asked as he pulled me aside.
I tried to play it cool. "About what? Oh, that's right, you're in love with me. Well, you can't be."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Rico looked surprised.
"You can't be in love with me."
He was starting to look a little annoyed. "Why not?"
"I'm a jinx. Bad stuff happens to everyone I care about."
"Oh, get serious Diz."
"You want a list?" I stared at him, then started listing my losses off on my fingers. "Let's start with my
family -- gone. Thought I had feelings for Carl. Oops. His brain got fried. Zander? Turned into a
bug."
"There's one flaw to your theory, Diz."
"What's that?" I asked.
"You're in love with me and nothing bad's happened." Johnny said firmly.
"That's because I'm not in love with you anymore. That's why you're safe." I turned to leave,
and felt his hand on my shoulder.
"Dizzy, I won't let you do this. I won't let you walk away."
I took a deep breath. Fought back tears. I couldn't let it show.
"Sergent, you outrank me, remember? I believe SICON command would find this type of behavior wholly
inappropriate." I snapped. Rico looked like I'd slapped him, then frowned.
"Fine, private. I'm sorry if I was out of line. It won't happen again." he said as he walked off. I
couldn't hide my pain any more. Tears flowed freely down my face. Tears he'd never see.
If only he knew....
What if he did know? What if he knew how bad it hurt me to say that? He won't, though.
I'll hide it from him. I won't let him know. After all, I'm keeping him safe from my bad luck.
If only he knew.
The End....For Now...
Author's Note: Well, that was the first. Short, I know. It was supposed to be.
*smile*
