Stellar Path

And then were seven… and I am still in the contest by the skin of my teeth.

I weighed in at 335.8, for a total weight loss of an astounding 1.4 pounds.

That was my sarcastic voice. Seriously, I have busted my ass this week, working out a MINIMUM of three hours a day, and I lost 1.4 pounds. I have not eaten a single carb after lunch. I have only eaten healthy, clean foods, and I am not in starvation mode.

So I’ve decided that for the next week, I am not doing as much. I’m going to do one hour a day.

Here’s my logic. I know that I cannot maintain three hours of exercise a day for the rest of my life. It simply is not possible. However, an hour of exercise is something that I can do. This is my new philosophy – if I cannot do it for the rest of my life, then I will not do it now to lose weight.

My weight loss may go even slower. If it does, then I’ll go to a doctor and have myself thoroughly checked out. I suspect, though, that a lot of this is truly mental. I am definitely a believer in the mind being a powerful influence on the body, both good and bad. With the mindset I have had in this contest of “win at all costs,” I don’t think it’s good for my body.

Because I have not been having fun with my weight loss for a few weeks now. So if I am eliminated next week, then so be it. I am honestly, truly fine with that. I can already name some benefits to being out of this competition. One, I can go back to taekwondo. Taekwondo meets four nights a week at 7 p.m., which is the same time as my workout. I’m itching to get back in class, start sparring again, and get ready for my 2nd degree black belt test. I want to perfect my form. I want to see my taekwondo buddies again, who I haven’t seen in a LONG time.

Two, I can go back to not being in a mental anguish state all day long over a looming weigh-in. I want to just get up, whatever my weight is in the morning, buck naked on the scale fresh out of the shower, is what it is. I don’t want to think, “Well, I know this would be good for me, but it’s food that would be sitting on my stomach, and that’s not good for me at this weigh-in.” That’s ridiculous, and starting now, I’m not going to think that way again.

Hell, I’m almost campaigning to be eliminated next week. I like the guys on my team and I like both trainers and I like the girls on the blue team, but I want to go back to just working out and losing weight, not agonizing over every ounce lost.

Because you know what? I should be happy with a low loss, even 1.4 pounds, and not begrudge it because it isn’t enough. 1.4 pounds a week is still 72.8 pounds in a year, and I’d look a lot better (and be a lot healthier) at 260 than 330.

Okay, bitch fest is over. The red team won, which is the only reason I am still there. I am the lowest person on the red team with a total weight loss of 16.2 pounds, and I am sixth overall. The blue team lost, and that means Deanna is going home. This one isn’t a sad elimination, though, because Deanna is not distraught, and she and her husband are joining the gym next week, so she’ll still be working out. Yay Deanna!

On to other news… first up… my first giveaway!

There were eight entries, thank you so much to those of you who entered, and the winner of my first ever giveaway was… Josie from Yum Yucky! Yay Josie! Josie, if you would, please email me at blueservo@gmail.com the address of where you would like the CarbQuik sent, and I will have it on its way to you Monday morning. While I’m talking about Josie, I’d also recommend you go check out her blog which is one of my new favorites. She has a wonderful writing style and sense of humor, and she is a true pleasure to follow, in a way that doesn’t sound stalker-y.

Second, and somewhat related to giveaways, is my Weekly $5 Goals Update.

1. Reach 333

Fail! Not even close. I’m still almost three pounds away. Granted, a loss is a loss, so I’m not too torn about not meeting this one.

2. Write 3,000 words on my novel

Fail! I did write 1,800 words of fiction (more on that in just a moment), but it wasn’t 3,000.

3. Drink at least one gallon of water a day

Fail! I came awfully close. On at least four days, I drank more than that much. I got close on the others, but I’m following this to the letter, and I didn’t make it.

4. Do at least 2 extra at-home workouts

Success! I, in fact, did three!

5. Finish 4 complete workouts in the weight room

Fail! Only three.

I have now earned $3 toward my purchase of a Super Mario Brothers Wii, and you currently have $7 toward the next giveaway. I’m not sure – I’m thinking the next giveaway will either be a water bottle or an exercise DVD. What do you think?

But I still like doing my goals, so here are my goals for this week!

1. Reach 332.
2. Workout ONLY for one hour per day. (That’s right – my goal this week is to do LESS.)
3. Write 3,000 words of fiction, including some on my novel.
4. Finish 3 complete workouts in the weight room.
5. Take another spin class.

That’s right, I said take ANOTHER spin class. I did one with Train 2 Lose, and there were parts of it I really liked. I liked the toughness of it; I liked the challenge it gave my leg muscles. I DID not like one aspect of it, and I can only assume that Spinning is Latin for “The Process of Being Anally Raped by a Bicycle Seat.” However, I am buying a padded gel seat this weekend, so I’ll be ready for next week.

Okay, my last thing – I mentioned I wrote 1,800 words of fiction this week. I’ve written more about it on the tab at the top of this page that says Ice Blog, but basically, I’ve created a fictional blog about a morbidly obese man who is spending the next two years alone in Antarctica. There are twists and turns planned, and I hope you’ll read it and see what happens. I’d always appreciate constructive feedback. You can find Ice Blog by either clicking the tab at the top of the page or going directly to http://www.stellarpath.net/IceBlog/.

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